Thoughts of a Friend

[Xaej]

This is a thread I am making to dedicate to my good friend, awakendwraith. He's probably the most creative guy I know in terms of poetry/lyric writing. This is his thread for posting whatever he wants. His is stickied, because he is awesome. If you are awesome, you will get yours stickied too, I promise.

All yours buddy.

- Xaej

[awakendwraith]

Yo nigga.

Its Called Faith For A Reason

Please excuse this interuption, envy, lust and dissapointment.
This is anger. This is hatred. This is "Fuck You". This is faking.
This is almost. This is crying. This is blinded. This is fighting.
Least accepted. Your descretion. Drunken lessons. I have missed it.

Not belonging. Out of sync with. So much higher. I can't believe this.
I am perfect. I am perfect. I am nothing. Hear the stories.
If I am so right. If this is beautiful. If I am sane and if this is real.
Why the qeustion? Why the doubting. Why isn't this happening to anyone around me.

I am crazy. I am crazy. I am happy. I am stable.
I am laughed at. Apathetic. Oh, resentment.. I missed the memo.
I am different. I am different. That is an acomplishment.
The only difference is they aren't dumb. I am pathetic. I am wrong.

I am crazy. I am happy. I am angry. I am laughing.
I am scary... to myself. I'd never lose it. They should run.
I am lost. I am lost. I am lost. I am lost.
Who am I? I am lost. I am happy. I am happy...

Please excuse this interuption, smiles, graces and mis-trust.
I am hurting. I am healing. I am partial. I am real.
I am real. I am real. Is this real? I am happy.
This anger. This is hatred. This is love and this has broken me... down.

[awakendwraith]

Yesterday Kicked So Much Ass

I hope that you don't leave for ever.
Are you satisfied?
I hope this ends before its over.

You think its better of we never...
I know you lie.
I think you're better off unsheltered.

You think its holding me inside and
I know you're wrong.
Lets find out why you really hate
Are you having fun?
I hid myself from you. So loving.
We stand in line.
I vent through self expression only.
Oh, how they love your lies.
Its time for you finally get the message...
Now run and run and hide.

Are you still interested? My beauty.
Should I take my time?
These tears aren't worthless and you know it.

I'm compensating for the last time.
God, I hope you're right.
There stood no chance of this at all.

I hope she doesn't leave for ever.
Are you satisfied?
I'm sick of everything you're wanting.
Are you satisfied?
I will expand on my horizons.
Are you satisfied.
Its time for you to get the message.
Are you satisfied?
Don't run don't hide. Hey now we're sharing.
I am satisfied.